May
May 12 ;
A super quick update
Well, life has been chaotic but I guess that's really nothing new. These past few months though have been particularly shitty. Mostly because my boss finally retired (her last day was May 9) and I just felt an incredible amount of stress and anxiety around everything. I ended up having to plan her whole retirement party, which I definitely did not sign up for but was forced into. And while I love my boss, my nervous system and overall disposition are NOT cut out for event planning. So it basically destroyed my health and my life for a few months. And once the party was over and my new boss started and was settling in, I got my first cold since COVID started last week! And now I'm recovering from it.
In other news? I got a Kobo! I specifically got the Kobo Libra Colour and I'm obsessed with it. I actually love it a lot more than my Kindle Oasis (my brother sold me his old one for $100 lol) and ugh it's just really fucking nice. And idk I just appreciate the Kobo store a lot more. I can sideload all my books too and actually keep everything online, which I couldn't do with my Kindle because I fucking hate how it updated everything. I dunno it just drove me nuts, so my Kindle had been in airplane mode like basically since I got it. Anyway, I reset my Kindle and I'll still use it. But only begrudgingly, lol.
My reading has slown down quite a bit, but I'm starting to get into reading more nonfiction. Currently making my way through the Communist Manifesto lol. I saw a video talking about how theory is important and how leftist spaces are notoriously hard to infiltrate by the FBI because there is so much reading required 😅 and it just woke me up and made me realize that me being lazy and calling myself a leftist without doing the reading is probably a form of anti-intellectualism and idk. I just really want to be able to talk about things and base my opinions in facts. Instead of what I do now, where I have done a ton of reading and studying in the past, but my memory is shit and I just can't recall anything specific. So basically, I should not be out there trying to debate or convince anyone because I'll just sound like a fucking dumbass lol.
Anyway... My biggest thing right now is figuring out how I want to organize all the information I'm learning. Ideally it'd be great if I could make my own sort of wikipedia program where I can link to stuff and easily find it. BUT yeah idk everything out there is paid so... I am just using my note app that I already pay for (Upnote) and just making a notebook for taking notes on nonfiction books that I read. Thus, as I mentioned I am currently reading the Communist Manifesto! man it's only 40 pages but jesus christ the amount of brainpower I have to use to decipher some of it lol. It makes me feel very dumb because I feel like college-me would have been able to go through this with ease (though tbh that's probably a fucking lie because I've never been great at stuff that's not written in a more modern way). But idk, the brain is a muscle, so I must exercise it. And exercise it I shall! But yeah, there's so much stuff I want to learn about. It feels like there's so little time in the day, ugh. I reeeeaaaaaally wish I took a class on political philosophy when I was in community college or at university.